When I lose my focus….

I am sure you have heard the saying. “Where you eyes go your body will follow. ” I think of back in Volleyball days when passing the volleyball…. where your shoulders are pointing… that is the direction of where the ball will go.

The past few weeks have been a blur if I’m honest. I have times of complete focus and then times where I want to be numb and watch shows on Hulu all day long… trying to numb the fear that is hiding deep down. I don’t want to acknowlege it is even there. Out of sight out of mind right!? Wrong. You can stuff those emotions for only so long… but eventually something is going to break. Maybe like me that might be snapping and your husband and kids for something that wasn’t a big deal at all. Or roaming through your pantry eating anything and everything that may taste delicious… to fill that void. That has happened a lot these past weeks if I’m honest.

Scrolling through social media, reading the newest updates about the virus. At first I really didn’t think much of it…. then hearing after my job was ending till we are allowed to be back…. and that people thought this was not just going to be a few weeks…but a few months?! I lost it. I broke down. Still hiding it from those I love. When will this be done? What if it’s months down the road? What if someone in my family gets sick? What if I can’t do this homeschooling thing? What if we drain our saving? So many what ifs?

Do you know what is wrong with What ifs? All they do is bring stress! And there is nothing good that comes from that. In a time where stress lowers our immune system, that is not what we want to be doing!

I felt God asking me… Where are you looking??? What are you focused on?? How’s that working out for ya… I have to believe God has a sense of humor with me. He has to…… I so easily stray.

When times of such uncertainty come. What I have been reminded is to focus on the TRUTH. What do I know? What does God say? Where is my focus today? Is it reading the news… or is it trusting in God knowing he in control. The same God who raised men from the dead. The same God who can move mountains……and part the sea. He is the one I can trust when everything around me feeling like it is spinning.

From Julie Manning – My heart

We will not fear, God is our refuge and strength. Psalm 46:1-3 “God is our refuge and strength, a helper who is always found in times of trouble. Therefore we will not be afraid, though the earth trembles and the mountains topple into the depths of the seas, though it’s waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with its turmoil.” We can trust God to be our Rescuer. We can trust Jesus to bind up our broken hearts. We can trust Jesus to be our strength as we face financial strains… marital conflict, defiant children ….. losses… betrayals. God will not be shaken , and thus we will not be shaken, for He is our Rock upon which we stand and cling.

Isaiah 41:10 “Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will hold on to you with My righteous right hand.”

What a beautiful reminder isn’t it? So when you feel like you are drowning, that you take 2 steps forward and are pushed 10 steps back. Know that you are held in His hands. He alone can give you peace. He alone can calm your anxious heart. BUT we must look to HIM. Even in those times where we feel like he has left us and is quiet. HE IS THERE. Look to Him. Grab his hand. He is strong enough to carry all your fears and doubts.

We can do this together… it’s a daily… hourly struggle isn’t it!? We know in our hearts where we should look. But the world will want to pull us elsewhere. You are not alone in this struggle.

Cooped up in our homes… away from friends… it’s so easy to feel isolated and alone. On a average day we have 30k thoughts go through our head… I have to think we have even more right now. Most of them negative. BUT we can control our gaze… we can change our focus. Lets remind each other that we are not alone… let’s fight this battle together. Because Satan wants nothing more than for us to isolated, stressed and anxious.